12 years ago today we meet Hannah. Happy birthday Hannah. We have had a good day. We went shopping, had lunch together and she let me take some pictures of her. Now we are going to have some chocolate cake with chocolate chips and chocolate icing all requested by the birthday girl. It has been a great day spent together!

This is a song that we sang in church today. This has been the anthem of my heart for some time now. We have had so many changes. There have been so many painful things. Life changing things. There have been days that I just want to lay on the ground and beg God to come today. I feel the fog lifting. I feel like we are going to make it. I feel hope again. Hopelessness is a very ugly place to be. When you can't breath because you just want the pain to stop.

Anyway, I hope the words from this song will give you hope. I can't wait until I'm free.

I took this picture a couple of years ago. There was a potter who came to church and talk about being clay. I've thought about that a lot. When the clay resists the potter it just can't be what he intends it to be. I'm trying to not resist. I'm trying to be moldable.

Free (Take My Life)

Take my life, make it clay

Shape this life in intricate ways

I want to be a child of faith

But what my heart wants most my body turns away

I push Your ways aside and wonder why I let pride decide every time

But I can't wait to be free

From this life of mindless sin that compromises me

I know one day I will be

There is a victory that You've won for me

And when You come back again

I'll be free

Turn my eyes to Your face

Let me draw from Your strength

And bathe in Your grace

Let me soar with wings to win this race

Let me have Your peace it's not a hopeless chase'

Cause I lose sight of all You have called me to be

And it takes so much to drop me to my knees

But I can't wait to be free

From this life of mindless sin that compromises me

I know one day I will be

There is a victory that You've won for me

And when You come back again

I'll be free

I know one day I will be

There is a victory that You've won for me

And when You come back again

I'll be free

Take my life, make it clay

Shape this life in intricate ways

I want to be a child of faith

But what my heart wants most my body turns away...

But I know one day I'll be free...

Jill Paquette

We survived last week.

It was a crazy week.

We had Cougar Run and Carnival at school.

Makayla had 2 volleyball games and a tournament. This was a varsity tournament. It was a honor to be asked. She doesn't feel like she did very good. She went in a couple of time and had a couple of errors. Life goes on. She is a freshman for Pete's sake (I'm really not sure who Pete is by the way. I don't think I ever type that expression before so I'm not sure if it is right). Anyway, when did you have to be a super star at 8 anyways? When was average not good enough. By the way she is above average but not varsity yet.

Hannah had basketball practices. She is not loving this game. And of course now there is a volleyball team for her to be on. I'm really not sure what we are going to do. I am not going to fret about that this week.

Jordan had a cross country meet. He is having a hard time in school. I really think we just need to slow down and bit. He is constantly complaining about his stomach hurting. I'm going to work on slowing down... maybe next week :)

I wrote my 2 papers for last week and got them in on time. Yeah for me! And I took 3 tests. Two were A's. The other one was HARD!!!!! So I'll be glad for a B's and secretly disappointed if I get a C which is much more likely than the B. Oh well. You win some you loss some, right?

So I have one more to take tomorrow. I'm not freaking out about this one. I should be ok.

I even cleaned my house this weekend. Things are looking up. A clean house always makes me feel better. Now just to keep it clean. That's always the struggle for me.

Makayla has a game tomorrow and Thursday. Then we are DONE with volleyball for a couple of months.

Basketball starts the last Monday of October.

Leland is driving me crazy as usual. He really can't help himself. Truly. He is just being himself.

That's my life and I'm sticking to it! Feeling much better about this week than last week :)

Hello! I've been missing you!

I have lots of pictures to post. I'm pretty sure I have enough pictures to post one day for the next year. I won't bore you with all that though.

We've been busy this week. The kids had homework to make up from when we were gone. I subbed a couple times last week. Makayla is finishing up volleyball. Hannah has started basketball practice. And Jordan has has some boy scout things going on. They had a bike ride today.

I have 4 tests this next week and 2 papers due. I have one paper done. I'm waiting to have Leland attention so we can work on the next one. I'm afraid to wait until the last minute. If I get a call to sub I want to be able to take it. I am slowly ruling out grades:) I am pretty sure 2nd grade or up. And 2nd grade is pretty iffy.

Anyway I'll post some picture and get off of here and write a paper. I can't wait to explain cellular respirations. Until last week I didn't even know cells had respiration. I still don't know what respirations are. ugggghhhh! I will be so glad to take my C in this class and be done with it!

Later!