"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder."
This quote has always fascinated me. How two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different. One person can think it is beautiful beyond words and another person will want to hurl at the sight. We are truly made individually and different.
I've also spent some time thinking about my definition of beauty. It has changed over the years. Things that were once beautiful have now faded or change or don't compare to something else I've seen.
Beauty is relative.
It relates to other things we have seen. We compare things to each other to determine beauty.
The more things I see the more things I have to relate to.
Times in my life work the same way. They all relate to each other. How can I know I'm having a bad day if I have nothing to relate it to. I have had good days and bad days. I've had really great days and days that I don't want to remember.
Today is one of those that I don't want to remember. We have made the announcement that the store is closing. Eight years of hard work is coming to an end. Eight years of sacrificing- over. Eight years of meeting someone new every day- done. Eight years of never knowing for sure what the day would hold when you walked in the door- complete.
Complete..... now I'm not sure that's true. I don't feel done and I certainly don't feel complete.
Back to the beauty thing.... Right now I'm sure my life does not seem beautiful. But some where down the road when I look back on this time in my life I will see beauty. I'll have this ugly time to compare it to and the future will seem beautiful.
Right now I'm looking up. Not forward, not backward, not down, not all around just straight up. Sometimes I'm laying down. Sometimes I'm on my knees because that is as far as I got that day. But someday I'm going to stand, then walk, then run again. And the day will be even more spectacular because today was not very pretty at all.
And I'm holding on to the promise that if God brings you to it He will bring you through it.
1 comment:
You know, I had not cried yet, it has just felt bad, like someone is moving away....then I get this idea in my head to check your blog and see whats up.....then it hits me.
Good blog...very heartfelt.
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