We went to church with mom and dad in Arkansas today. I did not even take any pictures today. It was rainy and it just isn't the same now that the kids are older. I was setting in church thinking back to life a year ago. We had no idea last Easter how different our lives would be today. Or that we only had about a month left before we found out about the changes that were in store for us.
Last Easter I had to lead songs at church. I was not happy about this. It's wasn't that I didn't enjoy singing I just didn't feel that as an alto I could do a very good job of leading. I'm sorry that I was not in a very good mood about it. We always had breakfast together before church. Sure did miss that this morning. I had Zebra cakes as we ran out the door.
I know time moves by quickly. Yet it still amazes me how fast things can change and how unprepared I am to deal with it.
I really missed the egg hunt we used to have for the kids. They are just too old for it. They would have enjoyed the eggs filled with money but some how it seems wrong to give the kids money because Jesus died on the cross for their sins.
We always have a family dinner on Easter. You know... ham, potatoes, green bean casserole. But since we went with mom and dad we had to just grab something to eat on the way back. Hummmm.... don't get me wrong. It was nice to have dinner together... but something just wasn't the same. I know I'm being whiny. I am grateful for my family. I'm thankful that everyone has a job and is healthy. I'm so relieved that my babies have all accepted Jesus as their personal Savior. Yet, I was feeling a little bit sad for myself today. Maybe even a little bit melancholy. And definitely still sad about some of the changes that have taken place in the last year.
So... I came home and took a long nap.
Tonight I register for my last classes I will take a MSSU. Can you believe it? I could go on and on about how freaked out this makes me! I probably have some chemical unbalance!
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